School = STRESS!!

So I only have a few weeks left in school then I'm done for this semester. I don't know how much more I can take! I don't really hate school, but I'm burnt out! I just want to be done! I'm losing all ambition to do my homework! If I don't pass any or some of my class I'm screwed! I kind of just want to drop out, and a part of me just push through it! I'm going to push through it because I don't want my family to be upset with me! I guess that's only thing keeping me going! I just pray I can do this!

New Roommate!!

Well tonight I was talking to my Cuz, and he is getting tired of living with his parents! Him and I have talked about moving in with each other for almost a year now! So when he said that he was ready to get the hell out of his mom's house I couldn't help but get excited! We're talking about just moving him down here and living in my place for right now. Then once he found a job down here we would find a bigger place! I can't wait!! Him and I are so close, and it would be so nice to see him more! Even thou we would see each other about the same as we do now! It still would be nice to be able to help him out! Oh I hope it works out to where he can move down now!! He has always been there for me! So to have him around more just makes my heart swell with excitement! Oh I hope this is in the Lords plan for us!! :)

Family

So today I found out that my mom went and saw this new scary movie with my sister. Well my sister doesn't like scary movies and I do!! Sometimes when my family do things it just blows my mind! I mean why don't they ever want to do things with me? There has been a few times they have asked me to do something with them! But most of the time I'm the one asking them to hangout with me! Even my cousin do this too!! I'm the one that is always asking my cousins how they are doing! But they never ask me!! I don't know sometimes it just hurts to not be seen by my own family!! I guess if I don't talk to them for a few months maybe they want to see me? Then I would have to think of why they want to see me!!? Is it because they care about me or because they just want to make sure I'm still alive?!?!? Oh well one day I'll meet someone who will enjoy being around me!! I hope!

New Position at Work!!

So today I got good news! My job is going to move me up and give me more hours! So that really rocks! But I have to wait, because of this young girl I work with! She went and mess things up for me! I don't know about you but, I think that's just wrong! But even thou she tried to mess things up for me my boss still knows I would be good at the new position!!! I just have to wait a few more days and train a little more. Then the position and the hours are all MINE!!! Oh it feels good to have my boss look at me, and know I'm a hard worker! Knowing that I can wait a few days and train a little more!!

Friend or no Friend

I don't have lots of friends but the ones I do have mean everything to me! So when they do things that they know will hurt me or make me mad just shocks me! I have a cousin that I use to be really close with and now she just looks down on me! She is a christian and she kind of forgot that she isn't perfect! I REALLY don't understand people sometimes! I know I'm not perfect and not nice all the time, but I don't do things that my friends aren't going to like! I also don't judge them! All I really want is a friend to just love me and treat me right! I don't know about you but I don't think that's alot to ask for!

Life's questions

So today I had to train on a new spot I was given at work. Well this one girl is a little mad that she didn't get it. So now she is doing everything she can to make it hard for me to train. She is even trying to get me in trouble! I really don't understand people sometimes! Why do something to hurt someone because they got something you didn't? I'm not like that I'm happy for people when good things happen to them! I don't know it just hurt to have her do that to me today!

NEW

This is my first blog on here. I think it's pretty cool so far. I thought I would get this so maybe I could keep in touch with my dad more (maybe if he'll get out here).